Rational vs emotional

I have always been a rational person, but somehow, looking back on past decisions and mistakes, all of them were based on my emotional part.

I have created a rational wall around me, emotionally unavailable.

It’s an unconscious type of thing, something I do on a regular basis like waking up and breathing and walking.

We are all animals, we base ourselves on instinct more than anything.

Is rationality even a real thing? Or is it something we pretend to have so we can make sense of our poor judgment?

How do you live after an end?

How do you continue with your life after an end? Whatever that end might be. How do you start over with new things, new friends, new feelings?

Where do you get the power to do things better? To not reach that end again…

Do you just tell yourself everything has to be ok? Do you just go on with your boring routine and then cry yourself to sleep?

I choose to be better, do better and make the best out of a bad situation.